Post from October 9, 2009
I keep feeling like I’m waiting on something. It’s really bothering me. It’s the only real emotion I feel right now. I keep going online and checking my email and Facebook. I keep checking my phone. I keep looking out the window or through the curtain on the front door. I just have this overwhelming feeling of waiting and it’s really not good. What I’m waiting on, I have no clue. Waiting to hear from The HUbs? Waiting for his homecoming? Waiting to wake up from this nightmare? Waiting for someone to come rescue me from it all? Waiting for the next step to start? Waiting for my own breakdown? Maybe if I knew I could get over it. Ugh, I hate this feeling, and it’s the only true thing I can pinpoint that I am feeling right now. Just had to let that out.