I’ve never felt farther away from The Hubs as I have recently.
So much has been going on in the past few months, things I have mentioned and things I have not. Some are paths of progress and some are slides back into old ways. But both are the same in that they have separated me from the last strands of closeness I felt with The Hubs.
I’m struggling with the delicate balance of holding on and letting go. I logically know the way I want things to be…I can put the perfect words to it when advising someone else. But as far as putting it to work in my own life? It’s a lot more difficult than it seems. How do you create that perfect intermingling of carrying the presence of your loved one with you while exploring your new life? One could argue that you don’t create it, you just let it happen. But life doesn’t happen the way we want it to, we all know that. So there has to be a conscious effort to achieve that harmony. A single tip in one direction or the other and you could end up with an unhealthy obsession for either the past or the future.
How do you create balance in your life? How do you carry your lost loved one with you as you move forward? What do you do when you feel so very, very far away?