Tuesday Tunes | Ain’t No Reason

Brett Dennen – Ain’t No Reason

Each week I share a currently meaningful or relevant song from my playlist. You can check out past Tuesday Tunes here. I love new music, so please share your favorite tunes in the comments or use the new the new weekly linky below! This linky is still new, so please share to get it going! :)

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Tuesday Tunes | You’re Not Alone

Saosin — You’re Not Alone

Each week I share a currently meaningful or relevant song from my playlist. You can check out past Tuesday Tunes here. I love new music, so please share your favorite tunes in the comments or use the new weekly linky below! This linky is still new, so please share to get it going! :)

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Fly by update + phone dump!

It got quiet around here this week folks, sorry! School and work are super computer-heavy lately, so I’ve been trying to balance it by staying offline in my free time. I’m nearly halfway through my final seminar for my Master’s degree and it has gotten pretty intense. I’ve just begun a major team project for class, in addition to the regular workload, so the next three weeks will be extra crazy. But the good news is — just 6 weeks left and those three little letters M-B-A are mine. :)

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To add to my schedule, we’ve reached the busy season at the nonprofit I volunteer for. Around this time each year we begin preparations for the annual memorial weekend we host in May. As the outreach coordinator for all of the family members of those being honored, it gets really busy at times. But I am so honored to work with such a great organization. Each time I can make things easier for a family going through what I’ve been through, it reminds me why I’m here.

I’ve also been keeping busy with my fitness goals. I plan to write a post about all that soon! And Uncle (my BIL) is in town for a while, so we’ve been celebrating his separation from the military and making sure he and Little Man get some ‘guy time’. Aside from these things, I’ve been really trying to focus on my word of the year — balance. I’m trying not to overbook my schedule or stress out over things beyond my control, I’m trying not to look too far into the future or overindulge in any area, I’m trying not to place too many expectations or be so harsh on myself. It’s daily work to break habits, but it feels great.

But all this aside, I’m still trying to keep up with my post calendar. I have lots of things I want to share and explore, so I’m not going anywhere. :)

And now, since no quick update post is complete without pictures, here is a random phone dump from the past week or two. Happy weekend lovelies! <3

Wine + pandora, making grad school happier since forever.

Coffee, making life happier since forever.

Bonfire night with buddies.

Takin’ a walk in the woods.

The beach is always fun, cold or not.

This little buddy didn’t want to leave me!

Medieval faire with Grandpa and Uncle! Yes he threw an ax…and a knife.

Silly String sneak attack! I got him good.

Kiddo’s first research project and presentation! He rocked it.

As we do.

Painting every little scale to perfection. :)

Such an awesome gift, my favorite flower. Thanks E!

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Such a lovely set of photos and a lovely memory stamp of this time. This is beautiful.

Tuesday Tunes | Feel Again

One Republic – Feel Again

I’m not really a fan of One Republic, but the lyrics to this particular song are SO relevant to me right now. I just had to share.

“…But with you
I feel again
Yeah, with you
I can feel again
I’m feeling better ever since you know me
I was a lonely soul but that’s the old me…”

Each week I share a currently meaningful or relevant song from my playlist. You can check out past Tuesday Tunes here. I love new music, so please share your favorite tunes in the comments or use the new weekly linky below! This linky is still new, so please share to get it going! :)

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Identity

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Finding yourself again after you’ve lost your identity is such a wonderful, wonderful thing.

We all go through that identity crisis as teenagers and young adults, that period of angst and rebellion and mistakes and discovery, that time of trying on personas until just the right one fits. By the time we are in our mid-to-late twenties, most of us are finally settled.

Unless you experience something earth shattering. In my case, the person that most of my identity was tied to abruptly disappeared…

and thus a huge chunk of my identity went with him.

So much of my struggles since losing him can be traced back to that loss of identity. I was left this raw babe of a person, left behind, confused, uncertain and exposed and insecure and unsure of where to go.

For the longest time I tried to reshape her based on what I thought she should be like. I formed her identity from the past, from who she used to be and who her parents thought she should be and who she figured she should be as a parent and who the world thought she should be now. I gave that illusion of this new identity such power that I let myself feel bound by it, trapped, stifled.

But these days, I’m consciously letting all of those chains slip away. I’m recognizing when I think that way, and stopping it. And in the process, I’m discovering so much I didn’t know was there.

I’m realizing I’m stronger and more capable than ever before. I’m deeper, more substantial. I have more room to love and a greater capacity for appreciation and affection. I’m realizing that I’m still fun and I can still be silly, and I appreciate those carefree moments so much more now because it’s from a place of intention rather than innocence. The fibers I’m weaved from are more varied and richer than they used to be, and I’m slowly developing a finer talent for crafting them into the best they can be. I surprise myself sometimes, as I realize this person I am uncovering is someone I really like and someone who is worth a lot.

Is she perfect? Hell no. She is impatient, overly generous, nice to a fault, stubborn, overly optimistic, sometimes too impetuous and spontaneous, indecisive, an over thinker, and quite the procrastinator.

But she’s also pretty awesome.

Finding yourself again after you’ve lost your identity is such a wonderful, wonderful thing.

Sometimes that person is better than ever before. <3

monica chaney

♡ !